We've all gone crazy lately...lately?

some random ramblings

Monday, June 25, 2007

Wow. This weekend has been an emotional roller coaster. Friday, I celebrated being one year sober. Everybody has been so wonderful. I got cake and cards at work and got to announce it at meetings. Sue took her gf and I out to dinner that evening. Her gf and I share the same anniversary date, just 20 years apart. Then at 12:30am Saturday, the nursing home called and said my grandmother had passed away. It is a little shocking, but also a relief. She lived a long, full life and had many health problems the last few years of her life. I don't know how to feel - happy or sad. Happy about being 1 year sober or sad because a loved one died.

Sue, her gf and I were hoping to get up to NYC for the gay pride parade, but her gf wasn't feeling well. I was upset at first, but realized how bad she felt. Oh well, there's always next year. I'm going to have to let Sue know the details about my grandmother's funeral. Wednesday is a private family viewing, then Friday is the graveside service. Nana will be creamated as per her wishes. I'll be sure to hit more meetings this week. Ok, I'm off to bed. TTFN. Peace.

Friday, June 22, 2007

I'm still standing better than I ever did
Looking like a true survivor, feeling like a little kid...

- Sir Elton/Taupin 1983

Wow. It has been one year since my relapse. It is so hard to believe. A lot has happened since then. I feel I have grown emotionally and spiritually. I know I still have a long way to go. It's about progress, not perfection. I don't know where I'd be without AA, my friends and family, my sponsor and my Higher Power. Easy does it. One day at a time. TTFN. Peace.

Friday, June 15, 2007

The past week has been an emotional roller coaster. I went to Akron for Founders' Day. I roomed with Sue's girlfriend. I had a great time. I got to see where AA all started - Dr. Bob's house, his grave, the Gate Lodge, the Mayflower hotel. It was incredible to meet people from all over the US and the world. I took a lot of pictures. I will post some soon. I also got to ride on the back on a Harley. It was awesome! There were over 900 bikers there. It was quite an emotional experience when we were at the graveside service on Sunday morning and these biker guys were in tears.

I can't believe next Friday will be one year sober for me. Gods know how I did it. There have been times when I thought I'd surely drink again. A couple of friends have been struggling. They both relapsed. One is in a local MH/DA clinic. It's heartbreaking to see people you care about in pain. I'd rather it be me than them. I hope to see one at the Saturday night meeting. Sue and her girlfriend are driving up to New York to see Sue's parents for Father's Day. I'm looking forward to the meeting because the guy I'm crazy about will be there. Gawd. He probably knows how I feel and thinks I'm a complete dork. And he's right. sigh Oh well, back to work. TTFN. Peace.