We've all gone crazy lately...lately?

some random ramblings

Monday, January 28, 2008

As many of you may have seen on the news, Denise was murdered. Her body was discovered near the area that authorities were searching. Her family is, obviously, devastated. Her 2 young children, Adam and Noah, are without their mother. Her husband, Nathan, is without his wife, lover and best friend. All because of a madman. Those of us who know her mother-in-law, Peggy, know how hard this has hit the family. She is just heartbroken and angry at her killer and the media which keep hounding her. The main one being NBC who have been trying to get the family on the "Today" show along with the cousin of the killer who saw a woman in King's car but did not call 9-1-1 right away. I wish I could take away the family's pain and grief.

On a happier note, I'm 19 months sober. It absolutely amazes me. I feel happy, yet frustrated. Maybe that 'pink cloud' people always talk about is disappearing. I feel very jealous of people who can drink. people talk about any type of booze on TNCR and I feel envious. Or when I see people I know and love drink. I still find myself dreaming and scheming of how to get drunk or high. Anything to take me out of myself. I've thought of everything from booze to over the counter medicine like cough syrup or sleeping pills (of course, they're made not to be addictive) to vanilla extract. I just don't have the balls to do any of these things, except for the OTC sleeping pills, which I take every night. I get mixed signals of whether they're addictive since the package says they're not habit forming. Who knows? I still go to meetings, but never share what I'm really feeling. Maybe I only go to make others feel better. Or to see the guy I'm crazy about. *sigh*

Right now my big addiction is WoW. I discovered the fun of private servers, although retail is still a lot of fun. I'm lvling up my skinning on my main. I'm trying to get the gold to get the training for my epic flying training. It will take time to get 5,000 gold, but I can do it. I have Netherwing drakes on private servers and want one so badly on retail. Or swift flight form on my druids. Gawd, I'm such a geek. I guess I better get some work done. My car is in the shop: new intake manifold and head gaskets, so my mom has been bringing me to work. I can't work later to get more done. TTFN. peace.

Saturday, January 19, 2008

I am asking for prayers/positive energy/positive thoughts for the safe return of Denise Amber Lee. She is the daughter-in-law of my friend, Peggy. Denise is the mother of two young children. She was kidnapped from her home in North Port, Florida on Thursday afternoon by Michael Lee King. He was arrested later that evening, but Denise is still missing and he refuses to cooperate with authorities. As you can imagine, her loved ones are just shattered. Peggy told us about the situation on TNCR. The news was cross-posted to other forums she frequents such as Pianoworld, Well-Tempered Forum and Piano Facts. Times like this cause one to realize what is important in our lives. It makes all the other things seem like such petty shit. I hope and pray there is a good outcome to this. TTFN. Peace.

Friday, January 04, 2008

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!

Time once again for those pesky new year's resolutions. Not that all of them will be done, save for a few crucial ones. I definately resolve to stay sober - this month will be 19 months. WOW! I need to lose weight, eat healthier, exercise more. I need to do more than playing games on my Wii. I did bowl a 249 on Christmas day when I was showing it to my brother and his fiancee. They hadn't seen it since I won it back in November through a raffle at work. Of course, I resolve to meet Elton John. *sigh* Like that will ever happen. I could resolve to gank more nubs in WoW. I should get both my druids up to lvl 70. My night elf droo is lvl 34 and my moo droo is lvl 15. I have a lot of work to do to get them lvled up.

My life is going ok other than that. My mom had her gallbladder out at the end of November. It went well. We had all the windows replaced, except for the sunroom and living room. They're going to be finishing up today. It will be nice to get my room back to normal after the wall around the windows gets spackeled. (sp?) There is some sad news: we found out our dog, Bojangles, has cancer. It's a malignant melanoma so there isn't anything we can do. We have decided to spoil him rotten during the time we have left with him. It is a fast moving cancer, as it wasn't there 3 months ago when he had the bladder stone removed. We'll have him euthanized if we think he is in pain or suffering. It's hard, but we don't want him to suffer. I best get back to work. TTFN. Peace.