As many of you may have seen on the news, Denise was murdered. Her body was discovered near the area that authorities were searching. Her family is, obviously, devastated. Her 2 young children, Adam and Noah, are without their mother. Her husband, Nathan, is without his wife, lover and best friend. All because of a madman. Those of us who know her mother-in-law, Peggy, know how hard this has hit the family. She is just heartbroken and angry at her killer and the media which keep hounding her. The main one being NBC who have been trying to get the family on the "Today" show along with the cousin of the killer who saw a woman in King's car but did not call 9-1-1 right away. I wish I could take away the family's pain and grief.

On a happier note, I'm 19 months sober. It absolutely amazes me. I feel happy, yet frustrated. Maybe that 'pink cloud' people always talk about is disappearing. I feel very jealous of people who can drink. people talk about any type of booze on TNCR and I feel envious. Or when I see people I know and love drink. I still find myself dreaming and scheming of how to get drunk or high. Anything to take me out of myself. I've thought of everything from booze to over the counter medicine like cough syrup or sleeping pills (of course, they're made not to be addictive) to vanilla extract. I just don't have the balls to do any of these things, except for the OTC sleeping pills, which I take every night. I get mixed signals of whether they're addictive since the package says they're not habit forming. Who knows? I still go to meetings, but never share what I'm really feeling. Maybe I only go to make others feel better. Or to see the guy I'm crazy about. *sigh*

Right now my big addiction is WoW. I discovered the fun of private servers, although retail is still a lot of fun. I'm lvling up my skinning on my main. I'm trying to get the gold to get the training for my epic flying training. It will take time to get 5,000 gold, but I can do it. I have Netherwing drakes on private servers and want one so badly on retail. Or swift flight form on my druids. Gawd, I'm such a geek. I guess I better get some work done. My car is in the shop: new intake manifold and head gaskets, so my mom has been bringing me to work. I can't work later to get more done. TTFN. peace.