tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-63092502011-08-22T16:27:05.561-04:00We've all gone crazy lately...lately?some random ramblingsLadyEltonhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16197841772961105942noreply@blogger.comBlogger791100tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6309250.post-16746693179853983172008-06-22T14:55:00.002-04:002008-06-22T15:09:18.595-04:00Looking like a true survivor...- I'm Still Standing - Elton John '83Today is 2 years sober. It's so hard to believe. The time just seems to fly by. So much has happened in the time since my last drunk on June 21, 2006. I like to think that I have grown somewhat emotionally and spiritually. I still have periods of depression and self-loathing. I still get a bit 'squirrely' in my head. Let's face LadyEltonhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16197841772961105942noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6309250.post-8024357049127723562008-06-16T11:42:00.000-04:002008-06-16T11:43:38.967-04:00Wow. Quite a bit has happened since my last post. I'm coming up on 2 years sober. The gal I like has 8 months. I had her speak for me Memorial Day weekend at the glbtq AA meeting. She did a great job. I'm proud of her. I see a lot of similarities between our stories. I chaired the meeting for the month of May. I did miss one meeting because I was isolating. I also missed the disctrict meeting. LadyEltonhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16197841772961105942noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6309250.post-26940655238491129132008-04-10T12:17:00.002-04:002008-04-10T12:46:32.113-04:00Quite a bit has happened in the last couple weeks. I went to an AA anniversary dance and had a great time. The gal I like was there. We all had fun dancing. It did end a little early dur to people leaving to go to another dance in NJ, I think.I took the day off on Wednesday April 2nd. I had the root canal on the infected tooth. I go back on the 23rd to get the permenant filling put in. Sue and I LadyEltonhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16197841772961105942noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6309250.post-76788771062345757022008-03-28T11:40:00.002-04:002008-03-28T12:00:18.841-04:00Yesterday was a bad day. We had our dog, Bojangles, put to sleep. The cancer was spreading rapidly and he was suffering. It's hard when a pet dies, They become a part of the family. We know it was for the best, but that doesn't make it hurt less. He can now playing with Sparky and Max again. We'll see them again after we pass on.I went to the dentist after work because I had a bad toothache. The LadyEltonhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16197841772961105942noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6309250.post-16160958326137416472008-03-12T12:45:00.002-04:002008-03-12T13:02:01.288-04:00I think I'll just give up on trying to get my say in discussions, especially on TNCR. It's like whatever I say gets ignored, except if I act like a total cunt. I say outragious shit so people will actually acknowledge me. I never mean what I say. It's just a plea for attention. I do the same thing when I play WoW. i get frustrated when I get ganked while trying to complete a quest. Yeah, I know LadyEltonhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16197841772961105942noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6309250.post-61285489095947606122008-02-25T00:41:00.002-05:002008-02-25T00:54:35.460-05:00Blah! I'm so sick of winter! We just got hit with a lovely storm. At least I got to come home early on Friday. Oh, and Friday was 20 months sober for me. I could have blown off work, but I wanted to get some stuff done since my boss was out of the office that day. I am becoming what I never thought I'd become: a responsible adult. I still have my moments when the old behaviors and thoughts come LadyEltonhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16197841772961105942noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6309250.post-20930837659734460522008-01-28T11:53:00.000-05:002008-01-28T13:39:04.185-05:00As many of you may have seen on the news, Denise was murdered. Her body was discovered near the area that authorities were searching. Her family is, obviously, devastated. Her 2 young children, Adam and Noah, are without their mother. Her husband, Nathan, is without his wife, lover and best friend. All because of a madman. Those of us who know her mother-in-law, Peggy, know how hard this has hit LadyEltonhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16197841772961105942noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6309250.post-45496334737530312002008-01-19T04:10:00.000-05:002008-01-19T04:45:16.939-05:00I am asking for prayers/positive energy/positive thoughts for the safe return of Denise Amber Lee. She is the daughter-in-law of my friend, Peggy. Denise is the mother of two young children. She was kidnapped from her home in North Port, Florida on Thursday afternoon by Michael Lee King. He was arrested later that evening, but Denise is still missing and he refuses to cooperate with authorities. LadyEltonhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16197841772961105942noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6309250.post-893282592239085712008-01-04T11:22:00.000-05:002008-01-04T14:51:34.614-05:00HAPPY NEW YEAR!!Time once again for those pesky new year's resolutions. Not that all of them will be done, save for a few crucial ones. I definately resolve to stay sober - this month will be 19 months. WOW! I need to lose weight, eat healthier, exercise more. I need to do more than playing games on my Wii. I did bowl a 249 on Christmas day when I was showing it to my brother and his fiancee. LadyEltonhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16197841772961105942noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6309250.post-14881775469668886282007-10-25T12:32:00.000-04:002007-10-25T13:30:23.630-04:00It's been a few weeks since I last posted. Thnigs are going alright. I recently celebrated 16 months sober. I'm feeling ok. My period is due next week. Oh, joy. I'll be going to the AA convention next weekend so I hope I get it early enough so it's done by then. I'm getting a new cell phone. I ordered it today and it should arrive tomorrow. I renewed my contract with Verizon Wireless. I've beenLadyEltonhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16197841772961105942noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6309250.post-34545597508548421522007-10-04T13:50:00.000-04:002007-10-04T17:13:16.107-04:00I updated a couple of things. I'm doing ok. I HATE having my period. Bleh! I would rather be at home, in bed. However, I'm here at work. My moods have been a little wonky lately. I think it stems from stress. Plus, I'm on the rag. I tend to hold things in until I explode. I tend to go off verbally. I call the players that gank me in WoW all sorts of nasty things. I think it's safer to call LadyEltonhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16197841772961105942noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6309250.post-18313206060376914192007-09-19T14:16:00.000-04:002007-09-19T17:17:04.961-04:00WOW! It's been ages since I last posted. Life is going alright. My grandmother passed away early June 23, a little after midnight. The previous day was my one year sobriety anniversary. Perhaps my Higher Power waited until the 23rd to take her, so as not to spoil my anniversary. It's amazing that I didn't think of drinking during that time. I immediately called Sue and told her and her girlfriendLadyEltonhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16197841772961105942noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6309250.post-19160823608756330722007-06-25T01:21:00.001-04:002007-06-25T01:28:55.934-04:00Wow. This weekend has been an emotional roller coaster. Friday, I celebrated being one year sober. Everybody has been so wonderful. I got cake and cards at work and got to announce it at meetings. Sue took her gf and I out to dinner that evening. Her gf and I share the same anniversary date, just 20 years apart. Then at 12:30am Saturday, the nursing home called and said my grandmother had passed LadyEltonhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16197841772961105942noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6309250.post-27566218507011663132007-06-22T11:36:00.000-04:002007-06-22T12:20:05.420-04:00I'm still standing better than I ever didLooking like a true survivor, feeling like a little kid... - Sir Elton/Taupin 1983Wow. It has been one year since my relapse. It is so hard to believe. A lot has happened since then. I feel I have grown emotionally and spiritually. I know I still have a long way to go. It's about progress, not perfection. I don't know where I'd be withoutLadyEltonhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16197841772961105942noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6309250.post-65961335030958401692007-06-15T14:23:00.000-04:002007-06-15T15:16:41.337-04:00The past week has been an emotional roller coaster. I went to Akron for Founders' Day. I roomed with Sue's girlfriend. I had a great time. I got to see where AA all started - Dr. Bob's house, his grave, the Gate Lodge, the Mayflower hotel. It was incredible to meet people from all over the US and the world. I took a lot of pictures. I will post some soon. I also got to ride on the back on a LadyEltonhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16197841772961105942noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6309250.post-41575945871105331512007-05-31T14:30:00.000-04:002007-05-31T15:10:50.667-04:00It has been a while since I last posted. Things are going well. I'm coming up on my anniversary. It is hard to believe it's almost a year since I last got drunk. It's a miracle too given all the stuff that has happened since then. My grandmother is in a nursing home. We could not take care of her. She wasn't walking and practically had to be lifted from bed to wheelchair back to bed. She had a LadyEltonhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16197841772961105942noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6309250.post-35375736164580388452007-05-04T11:16:00.000-04:002007-05-04T14:52:13.896-04:00It is a sunny Friday. It's hard to believe it's May already. This year is just flying by so quickly. My grandmother comes home today. I don't know how this going to work. She can barely walk and will be confined to a chair or bed. we think she has some Parkinson's disease. We also wonder if she had a mini-stroke. Things should be interesting to say the least. I will be sure to get to a lot of LadyEltonhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16197841772961105942noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6309250.post-45684771919846181242007-04-19T12:01:00.000-04:002007-04-19T12:57:52.637-04:00This has been one shitty week. The massacre at Virginia Tech is just senseless. What could possess a person to do something so horrific, so evil? It is obvious that Cho Seung-hui was very sick. The warning signs were all there. He was a loner, had suicidal depression, felt wronged by others, didn't show much if any emotion or empathy. His writings showed how sick he was. Who says such things evenLadyEltonhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16197841772961105942noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6309250.post-57576874055754383412007-03-29T13:25:00.000-04:002007-03-29T13:52:04.942-04:00I added a few more links. I put The New Coffee Room back on. I removed it after I got pissed off at someone on there. I have to remember we're all entitled to our views, even if we think someone is acting like an asshole. Not like I've always been the nicest person on Earth. I wasn't called a "manipulative cunt" once in David's chatroom for nothing. Of course, I was drinking pretty heavily then LadyEltonhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16197841772961105942noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6309250.post-20311130900169835092007-03-27T17:16:00.001-04:002007-03-27T17:16:57.406-04:00It's been a while since I last posted. I'm doing alright. I celebrated 9 months sober on March 22. it's hard to believe I've come this far. I spoke at the glbt AA meeting on Saturday. Sue chaired the meeting and I got recruited to speak. The meeting went well. I really appreciated all the nice things others shared. They all said that I've changed in the last 9 months - more confident, happier, LadyEltonhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16197841772961105942noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6309250.post-2195623416186382212007-03-01T16:49:00.001-05:002007-03-01T17:05:23.193-05:00It's a dreary afternoon here. We have a flood watch tonight into tomorrow morning. They're calling for 2-3 inches of rain. Oh fun! I'm sitting at work, waiting to leave in about 15 minutes. I'm tired today. I could not seem to want to drag my ass out of bed this morning. I stopped at the philly soft Pretzel place and got 3 pretzels and a Pepsi. The caffeine couldn't even get my lazy ass in gear. LadyEltonhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16197841772961105942noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6309250.post-57089682880400169512007-02-21T15:15:00.000-05:002007-02-21T15:16:33.956-05:00I had an eventful evening Monday. I went over to Best Buy after work to buy a graphics card for my computer. I purchased and downloaded Guild Wars: Factions but when I would try to load it, my computer would lock up. I was planning on getting a new graphics card because the Intel chipset accelerator sucks. I notice it when I play world of warcraft. My play would get laggy when I was in open areasLadyEltonhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16197841772961105942noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6309250.post-89192014921897124342007-02-16T11:32:00.000-05:002007-02-16T11:39:52.418-05:00Ok. Winter fucking sucks! Let's have a fucking snow/ice storm during a week when I'm not feeling great to begin with. My period is due and I'm moody as fucking crazy. I just up and left the one forum I post on because I've had it with the nastiness of some of the people on there and tired of the bullshit going back and forth. I don't give a flying rat's ass what political faction you belong to, LadyEltonhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16197841772961105942noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6309250.post-91276438963994406182007-02-11T03:55:00.000-05:002007-02-11T03:52:36.460-05:00I was driving to Wal-Mart on Feb. 4 and snapped some pics of the sunset while driving. And to think it is bad enough when I talk on my cell phone while driving. I tweaked and cropped it because of its size and because I was looking out my dirty windshield. Damn road salt. We're supposed to get a snowstorm on Tuesday. It's nice having at least one good snowfall a year. I like having a day off. Of LadyEltonhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16197841772961105942noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6309250.post-89007097781951538252007-01-27T15:19:00.000-05:002007-01-27T15:23:19.292-05:00 Here is a picture of Callie I took with my new digital camera. I took this on Christmas morning when I got the camera as a present from my parents. It came with a 16 mb card, but my parents included a 2 gig card so I can take a lot of pictures. The camera can also shoot video. It's really cool. Ok, I'm off to get a haircut before heading over to Caroline's house. TTFN. Peace.LadyEltonhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16197841772961105942noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6309250.post-28530898345049942032007-01-23T13:32:00.000-05:002007-01-23T14:15:49.678-05:00Good afternoon. I'm sitting here at work. I'm tired and have a headache. I'm 7 months sober. It's hard to believe. I'm doing alright otherwise. My class starts today. My teacher's name is Osama. He's from Egypt. That's one place I want to visit someday. I doubt it will be anytime soon as things are a bit unstable in the Middle East, especially for Americans. I play World of Warcraft when I get LadyEltonhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16197841772961105942noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6309250.post-54135388627916062482007-01-01T13:51:00.000-05:002007-01-01T13:50:35.626-05:00HAPPY NEW YEAR!! I had a good new year's eve. Sue and I went to a sober dance. A lot of friends from the rooms were there. She gave another friend a ride so I drove myself. We stayed afterwards to help clean up. I didn't get home until after 2 am. I had fun. Earlier in the day, some of us watched the Eagles - Falcons game. The Eagles won 24-17 and are the Eastern Division Champs. They clinched a LadyEltonhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16197841772961105942noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6309250.post-25794986740993960362006-12-28T14:15:00.000-05:002006-12-28T14:16:04.991-05:00It's been a while since I last posted. I'm doing ok. I'm 6 months sober. It's a fucking miracle. I had a nice Christmas. I got a digital camera - 6 mp Canon Power Shot A540. I LOVE it! I also got some new clothes for my birthday (Dec. 16) and Christmas. I got a scarf and earrings from India. My brother's girlfriend is a flgiht attendant for Delta and she recently visited Bombay/Mumbai. my sponsorLadyEltonhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16197841772961105942noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6309250.post-1162659612418432752006-11-04T11:50:00.000-05:002006-11-04T12:00:12.420-05:00I added the Amber alert ticker to the bottom of the page. A recent alert ended in tragedy when the abducted girl's body was found. A suspect confessed to the crime and will be charged with her murder. My condolences to her family and friends.LadyEltonhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16197841772961105942noreply@blogger.com11tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6309250.post-1161710592081125272006-10-24T11:07:00.000-04:002006-10-24T13:23:12.163-04:00It's a cloudy, dreary day today. I'm at work, listening to Elton as usual. I haven't posted in over a week since my class started last Tuesday. It is called Database Concepts. So far, so good. I'm feeling ok. I'm tired. My "friend" is due. This weekend my parents are going away, which means Sue and I will be looking after my grandmother. It should be interesting. Her dementia is getting worse. LadyEltonhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16197841772961105942noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6309250.post-1161032223260495942006-10-16T15:14:00.000-04:002006-10-16T16:58:31.040-04:00I'm sitting at work. It's a nice day today. I'm feeling better than I was this past weekend. I was feeling depressed and was close to picking up a drink. My "friend" is due this upcoming weekend. Also, my grandmother's dementia seems to be getting worse. Her short-term memory is really bad. She was in a bad mood yesterday morning. Mom and Dad took a drive to the campgrounds in French Creek, whereLadyEltonhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16197841772961105942noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6309250.post-1160675352716839512006-10-12T13:33:00.000-04:002006-10-12T13:49:53.316-04:00I've spent too long in the belly of the beastAnd now I shall be free -- Sir Elton/Taupin '97I'm sitting at work, bored. I don't want to be here. I guess I'm just tired. I was up too late on Pogo playing Penguin Blocks. It's a lot of fun. I got to bed after 1 am. I was tired so I don't know why I was up so late. Hell, I almost fell asleep while masturbating. I know - TMI. Anyway, I've been LadyEltonhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16197841772961105942noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6309250.post-1160580631556719652006-10-11T10:44:00.000-04:002006-10-11T11:30:31.616-04:00Today is National Coming out Day. It is a day for GLBTQ people to be true to who they are, to come out and proclaim, "This is who I am and I'm proud of it!" Today, I wear a rainbow heart lapel pin. I'm going to the GLBQT meeting tonight. Tomorrow will be 16 weeks sober. It's the most time I've had in a while. I still have a great deal of confusion and doubt. I fucking hate it. It's frustrating LadyEltonhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16197841772961105942noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6309250.post-1160537228816973992006-10-10T23:15:00.000-04:002006-10-10T23:27:08.826-04:00OOH! I so need to go to the mall this weekend. I gotta get the latest candles at Bath & Body Works. They are made by Slatkin & Co. Elton is a big fan of flowers and candles and he worked with Harry Slatkin to create these candles. They are based on those that Elton has in his own homes. Slatkin and Bath & Body Works recently merged. Previous Elton candles were sold at Niemen Marcus. The proceeds LadyEltonhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16197841772961105942noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6309250.post-1160489679539747572006-10-10T09:44:00.000-04:002006-10-10T10:14:39.676-04:00It's a Tuesday morning and I'm at work. My coworker, Wendy, and I are listening to The Steve Harvey Show. The listeners can call in and sing. I swear some of them can't carry a tune in a wheelbarrel. I don't feel so bad now about my lack of musical talent. They have us cracking up. This is helping my depression. It's hard to be down when listening to the show.I didn't get to a meeting last night,LadyEltonhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16197841772961105942noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6309250.post-1160412663379782862006-10-09T12:43:00.000-04:002006-10-09T14:21:09.280-04:00It's Monday afternoon and I'm sitting at work. Part of the building was without power this morning. We were also unable to get on the network. Things are back to normal..well as close as we're gonna get. Today would have been John Lennon's 66th birthday. So happy birthday, John whereever you are. It's kinda ironic that North Korea decided to conduct a nuclear test on the same day. I hope things LadyEltonhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16197841772961105942noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6309250.post-1160366908267790432006-10-09T00:06:00.000-04:002006-10-09T00:08:28.266-04:00I updated this page a bit. I changed the background templates and re-did my links. I also picked a different and seasonal avatar. Ok, off to bed. TTFN. Peace.LadyEltonhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16197841772961105942noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6309250.post-1160352843210352232006-10-08T19:22:00.000-04:002006-10-08T20:14:03.260-04:00Sue and I saw Elton last night in Atlantic City. Edie had to back out because she wasn't feeling well. Sue drove my car. We had a hell of a time finding a parking spot in the garage at Caesar's. We walked on the beach and found a bunch of seashells. There was a storm offshore and we found a bunch of conch shells. We then walked along the boardwalk. I had to pick up my ticket at about 6:30 or 7pm LadyEltonhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16197841772961105942noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6309250.post-1160238211559212872006-10-07T12:11:00.000-04:002006-10-07T12:23:31.676-04:00I'M SO EXCITED! I'm going to see Elton John tonight in Atlantic City! I'm going down with Sue and Edie. They're gonna check out the casinos while I'm in the concert. I'm a little over 14 weeks sober and am feeling better. Granted, I still have my issues, but then again, don't we all? I wish I wouldn't still get cravings. All the bullshit goes spinning around inside my head like Tigger on crank. LadyEltonhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16197841772961105942noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6309250.post-1152546126412333452006-07-10T11:17:00.000-04:002006-07-10T11:45:08.630-04:00It has been ages since I last posted, but I'm still alive. A lot has happened in the last 5 months. I relapsed a few times - the last one was on June 20. In May, I spent 5 days in Horsham Clinic. Those days did help, but I still relapsed a few weeks later. Why? Am I that stupid or crazy to think I can drink safely? Sometimes I want to leave and go somewhere I can be drunk all the time. I find LadyEltonhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16197841772961105942noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6309250.post-1139512404650337102006-02-09T13:54:00.000-05:002006-02-09T14:13:24.706-05:00I'm sitting here at work. My holidays were alright, except I relapsed on December 29. I kinda knew something was wrong, but didn't tell anyone. I had thoughts of looking for alcohol in some places in my house. I went down to the basement, saying I was looking for the kites to show to Sue, but was really looking for booze. Well, I found some. Dad must have forgotten that he put the Smirnoff Ice LadyEltonhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16197841772961105942noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6309250.post-1133460040050299632005-12-01T12:46:00.000-05:002005-12-01T13:00:40.060-05:00 This is my 'baby', Callie. She is a tortoise shell calico cat. She is a bundle of energy. Gods know I'd love to have some of it. She is already tormenting the dog. I adopted her from my friend, Robin, on November 18th. She had her first shot and FeLV (feline leukemia) test, which was negative. She is healthy and goes back in a couple weeks for her rabies and rest of her vaccinations. I'mLadyEltonhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16197841772961105942noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6309250.post-1131583151104779522005-11-09T19:16:00.000-05:002005-11-09T19:39:11.156-05:00Wow. It has been a while since I last posted. Gosh, where to start? I have been very busy with school work and going to meetings with my sponsor, Sue. I went to Rochelle and Jim's wedding on October 15th. I went with Robin, Nydia and her two kids. At the reception, I got a Jolly Rancher (peach schnapps, apple schnapps and cranberry juice) and took a couple sips from it. I put it down to go take LadyEltonhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16197841772961105942noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6309250.post-1127622610244241582005-09-25T00:03:00.000-04:002005-09-25T00:30:10.250-04:00Wow. It has been a few weeks since I last posted. Ok, first things first - the Elton concert was awesome! Jason (my brother) and I had a great time. We had 7th row seats. The security guys were pricks so I wasn't able to get up to the stage this time. Elton's final encore was Your Song and right before he began singing, I yelled "I love you Elton!" People turned around to see who said that. EltonLadyEltonhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16197841772961105942noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6309250.post-1125373851910861012005-08-29T23:53:00.000-04:002005-08-29T23:50:51.963-04:00Holy shit! It has been so fucking long since I last posted. So much has happened. On July 31, I had a seizure and was rushed to the hospital. My parents said they heard me breathing funny and they tried to wake me up. However, they couldn't wake me. They slapped my hands, yelled in my ear then looked at my eye and they were rolled back into my head. My dad then said to call 9-1-1. All I remember LadyEltonhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16197841772961105942noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6309250.post-1122575285008101232005-07-28T14:19:00.000-04:002005-07-28T14:28:05.016-04:00Ok, I'm sitting here at work. I don't want to be here. I feel like shit. I have a cold or another sinus infection. I think it's from this wacky weather we've been having. The heat wave is finally over - thank Gods - and it is about 20 degrees cooler today than yesterday. The past week or so the temps have been in the 90s and low 100s and very humid. A cold front came through last night - big LadyEltonhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16197841772961105942noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6309250.post-1121659228003171652005-07-17T23:49:00.000-04:002005-07-18T00:00:28.010-04:00 I forgot to mention that I went to the Philadelphia Freedom Concert on July 4th. I had won a pass off Elton's website. I managed to get into the front row. The concert was terrific! Bryan Adams, Patti Labelle, Rufus Wainright, Peter Nero and the Philly Pops. Bruce Vilanch and Wayne Brady hosted the concert. I met a local DJ named Pierre Robert from 93.3FM WMMR. He's a local radio legend. As I LadyEltonhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16197841772961105942noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6309250.post-1121658430637710832005-07-17T23:47:00.000-04:002005-07-17T23:47:10.643-04:00It's been over a month since I last posted. Quite a bit has happened. I relapsed again back on July 7. My parents were away. They took the trailer up to Hickory Run for a couple days. I kinda had a feeling a relapse was coming but didn't say or do anything to stop it. Why I didn't, I have no idea. All that fucked up thinking came back - the denial, the self-centeredness, the anger and frustrationLadyEltonhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16197841772961105942noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6309250.post-1118454623161649162005-06-10T21:46:00.000-04:002005-06-10T21:50:23.166-04:00Ok. An update - I fucked up and drank last week. My mom's surgery went well. A couple people left at work. We have a new psychiatrist because the previous one was sacked for doing some shit that was against compliance and HIPPA. Kelly is coming over this weekend since my dad and his buddies are up at the NASCAR race. Uh oh - I'll write more later, I hear thunder. TTFN. Peace.LadyEltonhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16197841772961105942noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6309250.post-1117063315158902732005-05-25T18:39:00.000-04:002005-05-25T19:21:55.186-04:00The past few weeks have been a bit busy and stressful. My kitty, Max, passed away on May 9th. It hit me pretty hard. I told my dad that we should have him euthanized and he was going to be on the 10th, but died at home on Monday. He hadn't been eating for over a week and was just skin and bones. It hurts, but I am glad he is no longer suffering. We gave him a good life surrounded by love. I bet LadyEltonhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16197841772961105942noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6309250.post-1114655790050191132005-04-27T22:32:00.000-04:002005-04-27T22:36:30.050-04:00I'm having one of those days..ok, one of those lives. I got my "friend" yesterday so today I'm tired and depressed. I got miffed because I didn't get anything for Administrative Assistant's Day (aka Secretary's Day), but the front desk did. Oh well, long story and I'm too groggy from Benadryl that I don't want to go into it. I hate being ignored. (damn I need spell check - can't type worth shit LadyEltonhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16197841772961105942noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6309250.post-1114395790727056442005-04-24T22:07:00.000-04:002005-04-24T22:23:10.726-04:00Jesus Christ! It's been so fucking long since I last posted. Ok, an update is in order. I'm still sober - just passed the 6 month mark. I'm still taking classes via University of Phoenix. Right now, I'm taking Critical Thinking. I got a C- in my last class. I'm not very happy with myself over that, but at least I passed. Work is..well work. SSDD - Same Shit, Different Day. I'm on the same meds, LadyEltonhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16197841772961105942noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6309250.post-1109048109045671712005-02-21T23:56:00.000-05:002005-02-21T23:57:21.176-05:00Oh gosh, quite a bit has happened since I last posted. Where to begin..let's see, I got an A- in my last class, I spoke at an AA meeting and a friend from work had a Jeep Cherokee crash into his apartment. That doesn't include going to the dentist and having 4 teeth drilled, nor the fact that work has become sick bay.I finally got a payment schedule set up with the college. The financial advisor LadyEltonhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16197841772961105942noreply@blogger.com4tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6309250.post-1107836723002093552005-02-07T23:28:00.000-05:002005-02-07T23:25:23.003-05:00It's been a while since I've last posted. I'm not in a good mood tonight - hell I haven't been in much of a good mood recently. I have no fucking clue why. I mean, yeah it's winter and my period is due..I know like you really wanted to know that. How in the gods' names did I last 117 days sober is beyond me. I'm craving a drink tonight. I'm PMSing, I have a bunch of money due to the college and ILadyEltonhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16197841772961105942noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6309250.post-1105943731570671382005-01-17T01:27:00.000-05:002005-01-17T01:35:31.570-05:00Holy shit! It's been ages since I've last written. I'm doing ok. I'm still sober - that makes it 3 months. Gods only know how I've managed that. My anxiety and depression are through the fucking roof! I don't know why. I'm glad I see my psychiatrist and therapist this week. Physically, I'm feeling ok except I had a stomach virus last week. I stayed home on Wednesday since I spent the night beforeLadyEltonhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16197841772961105942noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6309250.post-1104295815961834562004-12-28T23:50:00.000-05:002004-12-28T23:50:15.960-05:00The tragedy in southeast Asia is just unfathomable. The utter death and destruction caused by the tsunamis is beyond words. It just breaks my heart. I urge everyone to make a donation to the relief efforts. Any donation - no matter how small - is needed. You can find a list and links to various charities on CNN.com and Yahoo!'s areas that are devoted to the disaster. TTFN. Peace.
LadyEltonhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16197841772961105942noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6309250.post-1103992305202949092004-12-25T11:33:00.000-05:002004-12-25T11:33:24.820-05:00Merry Christmas!!
LadyEltonhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16197841772961105942noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6309250.post-1103585393315918702004-12-20T18:16:00.000-05:002004-12-20T18:31:01.190-05:00Ok, it is too early for it to be this cold. It is fucking freezing outside! The temp is 12 F and the wind chill is about 5 F. Other than freezing my tatas off, I'm feeling alright. I got most of my shopping done this past weekend. The stores were mobbed! I want to pick up one or two more things.
I had a nice birthday. I know I didn't really show it, but it was nice. I had my period - what can ILadyEltonhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16197841772961105942noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6309250.post-1103203297350635142004-12-16T08:17:00.000-05:002004-12-16T08:21:37.350-05:00Happy birthday to me.. Yep. Today is my 31st birthday. I share my b-day with Beethoven - the date (December 16), not the year. :P . My parents got me a nice blazer, slipper socks and an Eagles sweatshirt. Ok, More later - time for work. TTFN. Peace.LadyEltonhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16197841772961105942noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6309250.post-1102280250008545252004-12-05T15:23:00.000-05:002004-12-05T15:57:30.006-05:00Gosh - it has been a while since I last posted. I'm doing well. I'm still sober - 7 weeks. I'm all caught up at work so that makes me feel better. I don't feel so rushed. Needless to say, my boss is very pleased. I went back to work on November 8th and was almost 3 weeks behind. I worked my ass off and by Thanksgiving, I was caught up. I still want to get a new job. I may be caught up, but that LadyEltonhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16197841772961105942noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6309250.post-1100150945486338212004-11-11T01:07:00.000-05:002004-11-11T00:29:05.486-05:00OK, next time I get an infection and it isn't that bad - leave it alone. I was put on Bactrim at the hospital because I had contracted a small urinary tract infection. It was due to having a cathetor (sp?) in during the first night there. I finished taking it this past Sunday and on Tuesday, had a rash all over my body. And yes - it itched like hell! I made an emergency appointment with my LadyEltonhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16197841772961105942noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6309250.post-1099365747291879782004-11-01T21:43:00.000-05:002004-11-01T22:22:27.293-05:00Holy shit! It has been forever since I've last posted. So much has happened. I'm in the partial program at Penn Foundation now. I've been going since October 20th. What brought that on, you might ask? Well, I kinda relapsed 3 times in five days. The final time I was sitting in my car in the Expect A Miracle clubhouse parking lot drinking a bottle of wine. Don't worry - I didn't drive home. I LadyEltonhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16197841772961105942noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6309250.post-1095568043489663972004-09-19T00:29:00.000-04:002004-09-19T00:28:21.920-04:00I'm still alive. I'm hanging in there. One exception being I'm drunk. I know I shouldn't have done this, but it's too late now. I dunno if my parents know. They got home not along ago from my dad's class reunion. I tried hard to hide my intoxication. I decided to do this because this past week has been very stressful. I understand this isn't a solution, only a temporary 'fix'. Everything else hasLadyEltonhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16197841772961105942noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6309250.post-1094403536899872062004-09-05T13:56:00.000-04:002004-09-05T12:58:56.900-04:00I'm adding a links section on my sidebar. I finally figured out how to do it - damn CSS. Sorry it's incomplete right now, but I gotta run to Wal*Mart to pay my credit card balance and to buy some clothes. TTFN. Peace.
LadyEltonhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16197841772961105942noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6309250.post-1094321830489802842004-09-04T21:15:00.000-04:002004-09-04T21:16:04.493-04:00What a very busy week in the news. My heart just breaks over the tragedy in Beslan, Russia. It boggles the mind why people do such horrific things. The children, parents and teachers were innocent victims. If there is a hell, I hope terrorists go to the worst, hottest spot there. The victims of this tragedy are in my thoughts and prayers.
I hope the residents of Florida get through Hurricane LadyEltonhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16197841772961105942noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6309250.post-1094099660106573942004-09-02T00:28:00.000-04:002004-09-02T00:34:20.106-04:00OK, a quickie tonight. (sounds kinky, I know ;)) I'm doing alright this week with one exception - I threw my back out. My lower back has been killing me the past couple days. I get pain in my lower back (sciatica nerve) that sometimes shoots part way down my leg. I stayed home from work on Wednesday to try and get better. It hasn't gotten much better, but I'll give it a few days. I'm taking AdvilLadyEltonhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16197841772961105942noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6309250.post-1093752591120316572004-08-29T00:47:00.000-04:002004-08-29T00:47:30.340-04:00Tell me how does it work
How do you make things fit
Spent all my life trying to get it right
I've put it together and it falls apart
I thought to myself I might understand
But when the wall's built
And the heart hardens
You get a dark diamond
-- Sir EJ/BT '01
I swear Taupin had me in mind when he wrote those lyrics. I'm sitting here at little after midnight on Sunday 29 August. I'm tired, LadyEltonhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16197841772961105942noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6309250.post-1093315081459331162004-08-24T18:53:00.000-04:002004-08-24T18:54:43.000-04:00I had a good day Monday. I had an assessment with a D&A (drug and alcohol) therapist and I start outpatient therapy this week. I didn't get to work until around 11 am. Two of my co-workers were out. My friend, Robin, just got back from vacation. We don't have any doctors in on Mondays, but the front desk was very busy. I relieved Robin so she could go to lunch then helped her out for a while. TheLadyEltonhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16197841772961105942noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6309250.post-1093312660252282332004-08-23T21:57:00.000-04:002004-08-23T21:57:40.253-04:00Yours truly LadyEltonhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16197841772961105942noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6309250.post-1093233888223333142004-08-22T23:44:00.000-04:002004-08-23T00:04:48.223-04:00Holy shit! It's been so fucking long since I've last posted. Let's see..what's been going on.. I'm moved back in with my parents - oh joy *rolls eyes*, still got people on my case about drinking so I'm going for an assessment with a D&A therapist tomorrow morning. I find myself wondering if I'm doing this for me or for them. Anything to get them off my back. Aww hell, if I thought they were LadyEltonhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16197841772961105942noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6309250.post-1080964392293950902004-04-02T22:47:00.000-05:002004-04-02T22:59:12.590-05:00Oh, gosh - it's been a while since I last wrote. Too much crazy shit has been going on. Work fucking sucks. I've been depressed and anxious and have been drinking heavily. I've been getting drunk almost every night for several weeks. I've done thing before a few times. I still do it no matter what. The other night, I acted like a total cunt in one of David's chatrooms -- Dave was in there too at LadyEltonhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16197841772961105942noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6309250.post-1079416417365476022004-03-16T00:46:00.000-05:002004-03-16T00:58:08.140-05:00I'm still alive. I'm not sure what is going on anymore though. Oh, sorry for any typos -- it's almost 1 am and I'm tired and drunk. My job still sucks. Dare got sacked on Friday. I don't know what happened because I was out sick that day -- fucking sinuses! I'm going to call her and see how she's doing. It looks like I'll be moving back in with my parents for a while. Oh joy. I feel like an evenLadyEltonhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16197841772961105942noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6309250.post-1077408577787389052004-02-21T18:55:00.000-05:002004-02-21T19:12:43.686-05:00Sorry, I haven't been on recently. I'm getting my shit in order. I'm tired of my apartment looking like an f-5 tornado hit it. One of the few MAJOR things I have left is cleaning out my fridge. I'm afraid to open the door - something my try to attack me. I'm sure there are new life forms in there. That will have to wait another day though. I have a stomach virus and have no desire to deal with LadyEltonhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16197841772961105942noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6309250.post-1076392207919237812004-02-10T00:37:00.000-05:002004-02-10T00:54:17.936-05:00Oh gosh - it's been a while since I last wrote. I've been stressed out lately. Work fucking sucks! I'm frustrated by all the bullshit I see day in and day out. I'm tired of fixing other people's mistakes, which makes my job even harder. I, then, get bitched at because I'm late in entering stuff. Well, guess what - I had to hold up entering services for a month so new billing codes could be LadyEltonhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16197841772961105942noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6309250.post-1074452038832937042004-01-18T13:42:00.000-05:002004-01-18T13:55:55.420-05:00Ok, time for not only a new job, but to move to a warmer climate. Work is a fucking chore. Corporate cocksucking pinheads are making things miserable. It's not even just not being allowed on the internet and no e-mail attachments, but just the whole 'feeling' is so negative. This is when being empathetic is a royal bitch. The negativity in the air is just killing me. I make one little mistake andLadyEltonhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16197841772961105942noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6309250.post-1073843212339894022004-01-11T12:45:00.000-05:002004-01-11T12:47:59.906-05:00GO EAGLES!!!!! E-A-G-L-E-S!!!LadyEltonhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16197841772961105942noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6309250.post-1073784939329938762004-01-10T20:34:00.000-05:002004-01-10T20:35:59.810-05:00I added a links area. I might be adding more.LadyEltonhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16197841772961105942noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6309250.post-1073771797204983482004-01-10T16:43:00.000-05:002004-01-10T16:56:58.026-05:00This website is my online home of sorts. I've been a big fan of David Lynch's since Twin Peaks back in 1990..geez I feel old now. Membership on the site is $10/mo. but it is so worth it. There are two chatrooms - "X" and "Y" - where a lot of wonderful people hang out. David Lynch himself stops by a couple times a week. I have made many friends on there, including David, who I cherish deeply.
LadyEltonhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16197841772961105942noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6309250.post-1073710833974262362004-01-09T23:46:00.000-05:002004-01-10T00:00:54.570-05:00Well, it's about damn time I started my own blog. Not that I have an interesting life - or any type of life for that matter. But, what the fuck - no time like the present to start.
Today was a boring day at work. Where is work, you ask? I am a data entry pinhead for a large mental health provider here in the mid-Atlantic area of the US of A. I enter service vouchers and various other shit that LadyEltonhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16197841772961105942noreply@blogger.com0